it's not that i'm unhappy
no, i'm not...
i'm okay. i'm a big girl and i have a bright shining life all in front of me and i'll handle
i handle everything in the best way i can
and i get my happy moments
sometimes. well, seldom. from time to time.

but it's a great difference between being happy and being whole, being complete.
i'm incomplete. i'm being processed.
and i'm not sure it feels that fine actually.